While many may just say out their new year resolution and not actually achieve it, i try my hardest to achieve mine. Atleast thats what i think. Well, according to my last year resolution, i only managed to score 2 out of the few i listed, get into SIM and have a go at a marathon. i didnt go for a full marathon coz i realised it was just silly to try and achieve that in a year.

Well, this year i decided to lower my expectations. Looking back, i see that i could probably achieve 2-3 goals that i set myself to. With that in mind, i lay down the 2-3 Goals.

1) Run a half marathon (already signed up)

2) Achieve inner peace, more from a religion point of view.

3) See my six pack for the first time.

As you can see( if there's even anyone reading), Its pretty much balanced. A little bit of physical stuff, mental stuff and spiritual stuff. Its going to be tough, that i can assure.

Well, since nobody's reading. I thought i would post my workout updates like maybe once a week. I tried once a few month or years back but it didnt last. Hopefully, i'll last atleast till my six packs shows up.

Here's a before picture to anyone who want to have a laugh at.

See ya!

Its been a long time since i last blogged.Well, lets just say, i got something to bitch about.

A colleague of mine just "warn" me, saying that people are starting to talk behind my back.
Saying things like i may seem nice in front of the person but is bitchy behind him.
Well, I wont deny that.

Lets put it this way. I have my own opinion of people and i just don't wish to share them or more like i share it with the right people. So, when i'm out with 'A', I'll just agree to whatever he says abt 'B'. vice versa. I cant be bothered about other's opinion. I make my own decision, I decide whether that person is a good person to hang out with.

Coming back the people who were talking about me. Now, my colleague even said something about them having thoughts of walloping me. HA HA HA. Looks guys, If its just gonna be words then you might as well dont say it. Anyway, you're doing just what i'm doing, being nice infront of me and being an ass behind me. So whats the different?

If the truth ever come out of my mouth. Its never going to be nice thing. Reason cause i dont know you well enough. People tend to see the bad side of people more often. So if you hear me saying bad stuff about you, dont worry, its not a finalised opinion. Its merely a getting to know you phase. If you hate me, so be it. I'm not here in this world to please you. Only HIM. and i'm still figuring that out. So until then, i shouldnt put much attention on humans, just a lil.

Its confusing yet i dont mind it.

Somehow it reminds me of the friendship/relationship i had with Jennie. She treated me as a bff and we ended up where we are now. This is not much different. Except that I'm treated as a brother. Where really am I in your heart?

Honestly, I'm in a confused state right now. I'm pretty sure i have a thing for this whom i've known for quite a while, a long while. Just that i somewhat feel that i'm not good enough for her,yet. Not "Not good" enough looks wise or money wise or anything material for that matter of fact but more of spiritually.

I've never met someone, a girl, who looks beyond what I've done before. She sees me in a new light. My mistakes are not seen as mistakes, to her she takes it that I'm just not aware of it. She corrects it. If only I have the guts to tell her, I think i like you.

If i dont make this move soon. I think it'll be only be a friendship.

I'm not exactly that happy right now.

A friend of mine posted me a very common yet tough question. She asked which is more important to me, Love or Money.

To be frank, It takes a combination of both to make one truly happy. Those who chose only love are either deceiving themselves or they truly are satisfied with what they have. Those who chose only money, probably thinks that money could buy anything.

If there was a gun pointed to my head and i had to choose between money or love. I would still go with money. No, I'm not materialistic, just being realistic. Let's face it, money gets you almost everywhere. It can even buy you love. Yes, that person may not love you for who you are but honestly, are you representing who you are on your first date? Every guy will try their best to impress the other party. The girls will strut everything out should she be interested in that guy. So are you falling for that person for who she is? No.

Money, to me is just a tool to increase your chance of finding a partner. Love on the other hand, I would say something predestined my God.

Love also comes in many other form. Some love their parent so much that anything that is asked of them by their will be fulfilled. Some love their pets so much that they make sure the receive the best food, vet and treatment. Love, i think is something you should start from within you. Fill yourself up with love and when you have loved yourself so much, it spills over and out of you. Only then will you show love to those around you.

wanlep

While many are busy preparing for Christmas, I chose to sit down and think about what I want to try and achieve next year. Well, I came up with a short list, something manageable.

1) Lose weight
2) Pick up guitar
3) Get into SIM
4) Learn a new sport, maybe inline skate

That's more or less it. Its not a whole lot but that's cause I'll have school to keep me busy.

Thinking back, this year has been rather kind to me. It was the end of NS life which I miss. I got my driving license. I got a great first job. The only thing i didn't achieve was doing a marathon. Well, its not that i don't want to do it, its just that I keep having this recurring pain on my feet and its pretty bad. Anyway, the thought of running for over 5hrs, scares me.

Looking forward, I really hope I get into SIM. I guess its my first step towards a brighter future. It may not guarantee it but its worth the try. My goals and ambitions have took a turn. Priorities have changed and I must do something about it.

Happy New Year (: